My boyfriend and I have bomb ass sex. I’m never not satisfied. He’s just… Amazing. I’m surprised I haven’t gotten pregnant yet. It’s upsetting us because we want a baby. Stop. Don’t judge. Before you start saying or thinking, ‘you’re too young and blahblahblah.’ And before you jump to conclusions, yes, we’re going to get married soon. I’ll be going to college and he wants to join the navy, once we’re stateside, he’s going to talk to a recruiter. -crosses fingers- so, we have plans. They’re just not set in stone. I love this boy more than I’ve ever loved anyone. I’ve spent more time with him, than I have with all my past relationships put together. I wouldn’t have it any other way. He’s the one, I mean it.
I’m so sorry. That’s the only thing I can say. There’s nothing more to say, because it wouldn’t matter anyways. I’ve fucked up just about everything good in my life. But oh well. I should be used to it. I deserve this. I knew you’d leave, you said you wouldn’t. You even promised me. & now look. I pushed you away. I’m sorry, love. So sorry. Tears are streaming down my face as I type this. I hope one day, things will get better. I hope we meet again. I need you, so much. I hope you live a wonderful life. & I hope you reach your dreams. I’m sorry I did this to us. So sorry. I guess you’re done. & I have to learn to live with that. It hurts. a lot. but I’ll be okay. I think. I love you. and it hurts.