MEH. and not knowing how that person feels about you. :| Life problems.
No one knows how I feel because I don’t talk to people about my feelings. Lately everything’s been hitting me really hard. and I just want it all to go away. I’m really nostalgic for things I can’t have. I’m so tired of seeing things I don’t wanna read or hear or whatever and crying my eyes out. I don’t quite know how to say how I’m feeling. I’m just really…. lost. and confused on where I stand with you. & I never pictured it coming to this. I never pictured losing you. All the things you’ve said to me about our “future” feels like it’s gone now. Everything is gone. All because of my stupid choices and mistakes. I pushed you away. I just want to disappear. I don’t know what to do with myself. I need you so much right now. but you don’t need me. Nor do you seem to care anymore. I’m not exaggerating when I say that I cry every single night. This feeling never goes away. This is serious. I’ve never felt so alone and so not needed before. And I thought this would be it. That we’d spend our lives together. I want to let go, but I can’t bring myself to it. It hurts me to even think about leaving you, for good. Having nothing to do with you. I can’t. I need you. It’s hard to get my words out the way I want them to. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you. but I’m here for you. I am. I wish this could all stop. I want you back. No games. Nothing. I just want you. Please. Come back to me. I’ll do whatever it takes. I really will. I love you so much. so so much. & I can’t live my life without you. My life is living hell right now. I can’t quite explain the feeling that I feel. All I know is that it fucking hurts and I want it to fucking stop.